i miss you..
they  say that this feeling won't last long, as usual. how could they know?  they did not even know these days have been pretty hard for me, and it  was SEVERE. it hurts a lot to know that we have no mutual contact for  such a long period. and it makes me sad, really.
i  still have not figure any reason out for you to keep a distance from  me, not a single one. and i do not remember making any enough fatal  mistake to cause problems or hard feelings on us. i guess. 
all i did was making THE BEST to comfort you.
and i hope that i did comfort you. 
but i  guess i failed. we are no longer in touch even though sometimes i  hardly tried to find you everywhere. i really wish that someday you will  try to contact me even just for once. and well. it is not my wish  anymore. 
two  weeks ahead will be my last day of being fourteen, and i hope someone  will bring you on my birthday party for a present. and that would be my  best birthday present EVER!
i  admit that i was acting like a dumb. i do not want any camera or any  iPhone. i just want to hear your laughter like i used to hear. your  BLENDER laugh. oh yes, it does not blend only fruits or creams. it  blends my feeling. 
i  want to turn back the time. when we are still as close as a couple, more  than friends but not less than. the time when you gave your best and  warmest hug i ever felt in my life.
once again..
i miss you.
and remember, i will watch over you. you will be save.