Mistouch.

For my dearest as,
life is random and love can be just as random. if you sit back and really think about it, you will be left with one thought-a profound one-why bother? the only reason to live is to love and the only reason to love is to live. i had neither.. at least i didn't yet. i still love you. i always would. you are my "why bother".

thanks to ghostgirl, really inspiring :)

Afterlife.

We all surely want to know what happens right after we died--afterlife, not really the "afterlife", but i was just hoping whether we could possesed someone else and lived as them, well, i mean it would be great for me if i could see the world through her eyes and having things i admired her for. you've heard it, i admired someone. living a perfect life with perfect face-perfect body-perfect guy-perfect wealth, why would there be no girls cringing after they saw her? this is world to the one, absolutely not one of the world, because great people rules. the poors must have been neglected. elders did had time to correct their mistakes before they died, while youths doesn't. its because their time were being extended-while shortlived youths still stucked in an unhandled self-control moment. thats why afterlife are needed, so that there will be no hell and heaven, right and wrong person, bad and good groupies, because it was compulsory that Jesus have some sense of joke sending people to hell when actually He had paid all of their life. the only main thing is to know how we ended up dead-or what is really our regret.

WOW !

Dakota Fanning and Kristen Stewart, totally amazing. looked young and fresh in the picture above ;)

D A M N.

don't blame me, it was really, totally, certainly irrelevant. you're just too busy putting make-ups, buying speedcars, making nosejobs boobjobs legjobs whatsoever. so if he once or ever blink some flirty eyes behind you straight up pathetic you dumb nazi. just give your fully effort on attracting him and waste the whole of your life making some nonsense which most of people doesn't even care. love. it came if we were meant and tied to each other, not something you try hard on so that you end up pathetically. yes, you are completely pathetic. PATHETIC. i'm not his girlfriend, not even a special friend. eat shit you fucking toad licking numbnuts. nada, zero, zip, nothing. i stands out, you doesn't.
i love him, but i'm not in love with him. this is a false distinction. completely backwards if you think about it. love is love. what's really meant by being in love is obsession, addiction, infatuation, but not actual love. being in love is a statement of your own needs and desires rather than an attempt to fulfill another's. true love, on the other hand, is a bridge between to people. it had taken me most of my life, and all of my afterlife, to come to this realization.
so yes, me and charlotte usher is completely similar. we just had one difference, she's dead and i'm alive. but i'm gonna die, soon

He doesn't even know i'm alive.

being in love with someone who doesn't even know you exist isn't the worst thing in the world. in fact, it's quite the opposite. almost like passing in a term paper that you know sucked, but having that period of time where you haven't gotten your grade back yet, that kind of exhale whre you haven't been rejected, although you pretty much know how it's going to turn out. when it came to you, i wanted to wait as long as possible for that paper to come back. but waiting until you've just died is, well, maybe waiting a little too long.. or maybe not.

Grown ups.

Grown-ups, it was exciting. so today me and my friends went to puri to watch it, kocak parah. filmya bagus, it was nostalgic because it tells about the old friends meeting again in a funeral and end up staying together in an island. i like jasmine.

All About Me

Nick name : Natalia.

Born : Jakarta, 16^th December 1995.

Age : 14^th.

Live : - Jakarta - Indonesia .

Height : 158cm.

Weight : 42kg.

Religion : Christian-Protestant.

Zodiac Sign : Sagitarius.

Chinese Zodiac Sign : Golden Pig.

Blood Type : B.

Relationship Status : Single but NOT AVAILABLE.

Life Destination : A successful surgeon and make my parents happy.

Grade : IX (9)

Current school : Karunia Junior High School.

I am a/an :Geeky, Simple, Emo but FASHIONABLE of course !

I'm : Lazy, Eater, Independent, Talkative, Creative, Hillarious And Funny (I Guess).

Hobby : Eating, Swimming, Singing, Blogging, Chatting, Texting, Reading, Editing Photos, Listening to the musics, Watching cinema/dvds, Chilling, Writting.

Status : Moviefreak, Gleek and Lermaniac.

Fan Sign : Gleek (GLEE), Lermaniac (LOGAN LERMAN), Shawol (SHINee), Cassiopeia (TVXQ), and V.I.P (BIG BANG).

Biggest Inspiration : My Parents ,My Friends.

Quote : "To succeed, we must first believe that we can."

❤ : LOGAN LERMAN, Photography, Eating, Singing, Editing and Blogging, Dancing, listening musics, WATCHING CINEMA/DVDS of course !

Adore : LOGAN LERMAN, Cory Monteith, Chace Crawford, Kim Jong Hyun, Blake Lively, Taylor Momsen, Selena Gomez, etc !

People say you're : Smart, Cool, Gorgeous, Handsome, Hillarious, Funny, Talkative, Creative, Bla bla bla =p

Favorite type of guy : Taller than me, white, chinese/western/korean, older at least 2 years than me, smart, good looking, fashionable, multitalented, nice attitude, daring, smart and if I'm lucky, rich ROFLMAO.

Hate : PINK !, insect, alay, liar, noise, waiting, lonely.

Part of your body that you like : My long fooot, my face, my cuteness*halah =p*, i can be both handsome and pretty, I'm quite white, my hair *a lot of people envy my hair! ;p*

Part of your body that you HATE : MY FATTY BELLY!, MY BIG SIZE FEET *panjang doang, ga gede -.-*

Favorite Color : Black , White ,Yellow ,Red ,Blue ,Gold ,Silver.

Favorite drink : Mineral water, Juice, Soft Drinks, Cofee.

Favorite Kind Of Music : Hip Hop, Rap, R&B, Jazz, Blues, Soul and Pop, and KPOP ofc !

Favorite Kind Of Movie : Thriller, Action, musical, comedy, and drama

Favorite Tv Series : GLEE!, Gossip Girl, Vampire Diaries, Wizard of Waverly Place, etc !

Favorite Actor : Johny Depp, Leonardo DiCaprio,

Favorite Actress : Kate Winslet, Scarlett Johansson, etc !

Favorite Movie : Avatar, Harry Potter Series, The Twilight Saga,and many more !

Favorite Korean Movie / Tv Series : Boys Before Flowers, You're Beautiful, My Fairlady, Deathbell, etc.

Favorite Other Movie / Tv Series : 3 Idiots and My Name Is Khan

Favorite Director : Steven Spielberg, James Cameron, Quentin Tarantino, etc

Favorite Tv Actress : Miley Cyruz.

Favorite Singer : Lady GaGa, Rihanna, Beyonce, Taylor Swift, etc !

Favorite Western Group / Band : Boys Like Girls, Paramore, Tokio Hotel, etc !

Favorite Korean Group / Band : SHINee, TVXQ, Big Bang, 2NE1, FT Island, etc !

Favorite Korean Actor : Jang Geun Seuk, Kim Bum, Lee Min Ho, etc !

Favorite Korean Actress : Kim Beol, Park Shin Hye, etc !

Favorite Rap Singer : Ludacris, Pitbull, Flo Rida, and many more !

Favorite Kind Of Dance : BREAK DANCE!, Hip Hop, Lockin, Poppin, Krumping, and Salsa.

Favorite Photographer : idk, i just know ARSETO ADIPUTRA

Favorite Country / City : Korea, Japan, Shanghai, Taiwan, Aussie, Singapore, Malaysia, Bangkok, Paris, etc!

Favorite Language : English, Korean, Japanese, French, Spain.

Favorite Gadget (not your own) : macbook, iPod, iPhone, etc.

Your Style : all Black&White, like sleeves+legging+necklace, bangles and ear rings+gladiator, DONE!

Fashion Inspiration : Taylor Momsen, model off duty style, ulzzang.

Favorite Clothes' Store : Zara, Topshop, Forever 21, GAP, many more !

You Won't Wear's : midis, skirt, something 'too open' and too girly, and of course PINK!

Favorite Fashion Blogger : lulu and your mom, miss chelle, some styles fromlookbook, etc.

Favorite Magazine : Gogirl!, LOOKS, Cinemags and Animonster.

Favorite Comics : Miiko!, Shugo Chara, Otomen, many more !

Favorite Novels : Twillight Series , Summer In Seoul ,Autumn In Paris, Winter In Tokyo ,Spring In London.

Favorite Brand : Nike, Reebok, Billabong, etc.

Favorite Junkfood : McD, Burger King, Pizza Hut, many more !

Favorite Fro-yo : JCool, Red Mango and Sour Sally.

Favorite Mall : Gading , Moi ,PP ,TA ,Grand Indonesia.

Favorite Shopping Place : Orchard Road, some boutique, bla bla bla.

Favorite Social Network :Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Formspring, Plurk and of course BLOGGER !

Favorite Boys' Things : accecories, clothes, simpleness, car, girls !

Favorite Type Of Car : ferrari, lamborghini, maserati, porsche, aston martin, bugati veyron, mercedes, BMW, Audi and fairlady.

Favorite Sports : basketball, soccer, RACING!

Which Movie Do You Want To Be The Role Actress ? BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS, Harry Potter, Twilight Saga.

Obsessed With : boys and their things and of course LOGAN LERMAN !

If You Have A Crib, How Will It Look ? MINIMALIST ! All black, white and red !

My Favorite Job : a writter, a graphic designer, an architect haha

Ok, that's all, i don't have any idea -.-

need more information, ask me anything at

http://www.formspring.me/SheIsNatalya

I really love this video ♥

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending. I ♥ This Song

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Follow ,follow and folow !

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Thanks before , XOXO ♥

Your dead and dreams don't make you smile.

good day bloggers, how are you? what are you doing? where did you spent your hols at? did you embarassed yourself by farting infront of the public? i hope not. it's the news of the day, eclipse already starts. but i'm not gonna watch it today, no doubt that the queue explodes and maybe i won't get any tickets unless i've lined up since morning, that wouldn't be great. so tomorrow me and my friends are going to ex and plaza indonesia, so that we have both theaters for choice. can't wait for tomorrow, wanna join? anyway, here's the story about me and JC.
i believe in Jesus, He's my father. every person have their own perspective to interpret what's Jesus and what's heaven. well for me, being a christian or catholic doesn't mean going to church everyday or feeling slumped once you did a sin, okay that's random. albert einstein said that someone who never did mistakes never try anything new. now thats true, holy peeps' life are shallow, they aren't shatterproof and they can't survive the outside world. if Jesus lived on earth once again, He will be surfing, listening to ipod, enjoying the sunshine, etc. there were so much things which can only be done at teenage, but teens do need more directions. thats why religion is created.
listening to the runaways, i'd always love them.

Hell is a teenager girl

well, it's a confession. i'm a dork, not a babe. i used to have my driver pick me up at ten, i got my pocket money less than a million each month and i'm still a backdoor-virgin. but i really can get along with babes. babes are fun, but it isn't like that i'm trailing after them so that peeps knew i'm scrumptious, oh shut up poophead. we just like similar stuffs like chick dicks or fake boobs and the lesbian scene in jennifer's body, yet some of you are still jello. you're lime green jello and you can't even admit it to youself. i felt like boo-boo.
just deleted some of sentences in my early posts. it's penis cheese.

burnin' and lootin' - bob marley

Hello vodka

hey, had left my blog for such a long time. sorry. had nothing to say actually, these days have gone so normal. my parents were busy and had no time to ask us out for a trip, oh shit this is maybe the most boring hols i ever had. anyw, not feeling well during the hols because of flu and i'm not recovered yet, so my hols sucks. i'm staying at home today, my parents were out and i'm left alone. customizing zoom kobe v at nike's official website, next time i'll show you the link of my nike id.

Quero-o :D

You ain't got drunk get out of the club

hate when someone are being a hypocrite by spreading out the news about ariel peter and luna's porn video, i felt sorry for both of them. it wasn't their fault actually, there are many people having their sex being recorded for personal. it was so embarassing to know that indonesian peoples got lots of money by screwing someone's privacy. kudos for that.

really loved when kim kardashian displayed her picture holding justin bieber's hand at microblogging twitter, thats what famous people should do :)

Fuck-a-doodle-doo

just got back from watching tekken, i think it was amazing, and somehow kelly overton attracts me alot when she acts as christie monteiro, yeah, she was that good. i hate anna williams and her kinky character, well she acts like shit and her face doesn't match the real anna i used to play on games, she is rather called a compassionate than an actual "minx" or naughty girl, to my mind. but overall the movie was good, the plot were unstoppable and the characters were eye-catching, and the best scene was (including a best scene is one of my bad habits, literally) of course the love scenes *wink and best of all was jin versus bryan fury.
hey, i'm in a bad mood right now. i've been waiting for someone to greet me on skype but he doesn't turn up for the last hours, jerk. my head spins, and my eyes hurts. come on.

SINGLE

A letter for you

Dear pompon,
most of people think they know me. well, they actually don't. i'm a differet person, the only place you could find when you need someone to accept whoever you are, is me. sigh, maybe most of you think i'm rebellious or such a virago, but i'm actually not. i'm just trying to show all of you that i'm tough, even if most of boys came and blessed me and the reason is where ever my existence stands there will be you who would show to everyone that i will turn my head to a good looking man with no brain or guts, you're just wrong. but thanks for being able to understand that i don't want you to look at me and sooner or later you'll regret loving me this much and by the way, i know you did cried alot, but you knew tears won't bring me back to you. so, i think this would be my very last time to say thing to you, i hope you're glad.
love,
bangs.

Breathens : naked lunch

So how do we start this one? ah, let's have some twitting time, lol. so all of you must know it was fifa fever and everyone supports their own favourite team. gw nulis di status fb gw kalo gw dukung portugal blah blah and suddenly one of my friend's band member left a comment that portugal didn't play well and a minute later he shared at his profile something like buat apa nonton bola ga penting and whatever. i disliked him, tiap kali gw online pasti dia sok2 speaks rude like i usually did and ngomong nya ga penting gitu caper. at first gw bodo amet, terus gw liat profile picture nya dia. if some of you doesn't know a web named getgrossedout.com, it was a free snapshot web which we can put some silly eyes or fangs in our pictures. i have one of them in my profile and dia juga ikutan make web itu buat edit foto nya yg super idiot looking and silly dork faced. well if that web are popular enough for everyone to open and used, gw masih maklum lah if someone else use the web to edit their photos. but in this case, seumur-umur gw ga pernah liat ada yg make getgrossedout. gw aja dikasitau temen gw. he copied my style TOO MUCH. males, jadinya skarang gw remove dari profile gw. gatau dah sadar apa ngga and please, delete your photo. by the way, i've made a plan with my friends. tomorrow we'd like to watch a-team and probably go for some window shopping. can't wait for tomorrow because i haven't gone anywhere for 2 days and it sucks. jeez, this is holiday and i'm staying at home like a shit. perhaps about 2 weeks more i'll be going to singapore to visit my sister and buy some stuffs that costs cheaper than indonesia usually sold. anyway, today my house are full of peoples. my little cousin and my bro's friend are staying at our house and since yesterday i haven't went out of my room aside from eating and taking a bath. so i prefer sleeping and do some work out in my room instead of listening for those rumpus, gosh luckily my bro and his friend are going out to watch movie and eat. i wanna OUT too. anyhow, found this website about a week ago, this is totall

Finger exercise

Hey. haven't write anything for 3 days, i guess. so yesterday i went watching karate kid with my friends and eating sushi after the movie was over. actually the school held an event called student concert which art performances were shown infront of the public and so sorry, i did not attend because it was 30 mins left before the event was over when i was just about coming back.
anyway, loving someone.
i think i left something behind. i think i shouldn't have said i hate him besides.. i miss him. does he whispers something to you altough there are nobody around? does he let you tell your favourite parts when you've seen it a million times? does he remember to order your favourite juice before you arrived? does he always know how to make you forgive him? does he hold you tight while you're crying? does he passed by your house in the middle of a night just to make sure you're sleeping? oh, you should've know how it felt when it was only both of us inside the blanket. oh, you should've know how it felt when it was the time to say goodbye..
only you
you
you
you
irreplaceable
udah 2 bulan ga ketemu. gw masih belom bisa lupa sama lu. gw masih simpen sms sama received call dari lu, foto sama tiket bioskop bareng lu. it seems like i still need all of them, gatau buat apa. you know, sometimes people said whether they could turn back the time or not. it was because love is all about timing. it will be too late if you did not say the right things at the right moment. there are many people surrounding you yg sayang bangettt sama lu. i know you're happy. gw sendirian, but at least i really tried to smile.
"how can i hate the person i love?"

Bad kids by Black lips

Bad kids all my friends are bad kids
product of no dad kids
kids like you and me
bad kids aint no college grad kids
livin life out on the skids
kids like you and me
in class we are a minority
got no respect for authority
and won't play well with others
and steal from all your mothers
they'll try to give us pills
oh wait give us all the pills
go cry mom I gotta go to court
dad won't pay his child support
well you gotta understand
we only do these things because all we are is
bad kids all my friends are bad kids
product of no dad kids
kids like you and me
bad kids aint no college grad kids
livin life out on the skids
kids like you and me
at home he throws a hissy fit
time out he doesn't give a shit
got drunk off all of grandmas schnaps
got caught tunnin from the cops
toilet paper on the yard
six f's on my report card
smoke cigs in the bathroom stall
spray paint penis on the wall
well you gotta understand
we only do these things because all we are is
bad kids all my friends are bad kids
product of no dad kids
kids like you and me
bad kids aint no college grad kids
livin life out on the skids
kids like you and me

Angels strenghten sirit

When god assigns your guadian angel, it's a match made in heaven. soft as a butterfly's wing grazing your cheek in the caress of an angel bringing you comfort. a friendly voice in the dark of night, the tentative rays of morning light, a host of butterflies high in flight, a rainbow extending far out of sight - all these miracles tell me these: angels really do exist. an angel is a friend on loan from heaven. each soft breeze is like the flutter of angel wings passing you by. they are god's reassurance that he is never very far away. through the eyes of faith, i see the work of angels daily orchestrating my life on behalf of our heavenly conductor. angels provide a heavenly view, a god - sent message from him to you. when we look with our hearts, not our eyes, we will see angels surrounding us at every moment. it doesn't matter if we can't see angels. our ability to feel their silent, supportive presence is a testament to our faith. i prayed for an angel to comfort me at night. i prayed for an angel to make the darkness bright. when the long night was over and the pain was all gone, i thanked god for the angel who kept me safe until dawn. angels change dusk to dawn. angels sing with the voice of a laughing child and listen with ears of a wise mother. angels can be as nurturing as a mother hen and as fierce as a father lion. like god, they embody the best of female and male qualities. an angel's wings are always large enough to shield the person they are sent to look after. angels don't fear the rain, snow, or stormy weather. they know their wings and their spirits are waterproof. may you always travel with the wind at your back, a star for a compass, and an angel on your shoulder. god's angels help us stay on a righteous path. sometimes it is only after a crisis has passed that we recognize that angels have been present all along. don't think you will find angels by looking heavenward. most of them are making a difference in the lives here on earth. angels don't look at the size of your purse nor measure your net worth. angels know you're precious by virtue of your birth. angels are living examples that it's size of your faith, not the size of your muscles, that determines your true strength. angels are like smart drivers. they know how to put the brakes on our impulsive behaviour. sometimes they muffle the sounds that distract us from goodness, and they always try to steer us in the right direction. when angels come, life's shadows leave. whether wide awake or sound asleep, your guardian angel is yours to keep!

You're just an imperfect person in a perfect pain

Okay, first. being an unsympathetic person is so hard. you know, sometimes people lived by their ways of making others happy, well i'm just not that type of person. for me, my happiness is the reason why i lived on earth right now. someone ever told me that we shall not let a person who loves us very much down. to date, gue muak denger kata2 itu. what's life if it's not lived? human life aren't just a dream, which we are not really awake. nuts, you're making yourself dead if this continues.

hey, these days have gone as usual, instead one of my friend got a warning letter and fuck you all teachers. sacrilegious is just a thing which is done when they both don't have a "relationship" or if they don't know each other, literally. hey you hypocrites, juvenile delinquency are all ordinary except if they both go on a date and fuck themselves infront of you, that will be funny. anyway, solomon kane and toystory are on theaters right now, but i still don't know whether i'm going out later or not because i had only 150 left on my pocket, fine. today i woke up with tears and hey, i'm not gonna tell any of you whats happening yesterday, it was terrible. luckily, actually i'm not hooked-up yet, i'm holding on. i'm not sad, not so glad though.

Strangers Waiting Up and Down The Boulevard

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I'm a kind person who can't get along.

great, only 14 posts left on this blog. guess i'm becoming a weirdo, i'll just snatch it all up. 15, with this one. lots to tell, but my eyes hurt because i don't switch on the light while i was writing the last one. so, gotta sleep right now, tonight i'll post something.

Did you came alone ?

now i'm really mad, sorry. you've cancelled too much of our plans and i'm very dissapointed right now. i guess i won't write much about you. it sucks. just got back from the church (yeap, finally i went to the church) and as expected it was so b*ring and i don't really get the meaning when the priest was sermonizing. anyway, when i told you that i am a type of person who can't get along, let me clarify a thing. maybe some of you doesn't really get what i said, i can't get along with people who is fusty or what? kolot is the right one. well, most girls in my class are just too "ordinary" and they doesn't seems to have any sense of fight in other words they are all spoiled. like when i told them to bring the stuffs for our project and the next day they just came and tell me to buy all the materials on the supply shop because they doesn't bring anything. and one thing, they really loved to snitch everything about me until the teachers *fucks* counciled me. whatever pikirin amet gw, i sweared i will not ever trust any of them. fuck you all.

walk ,walk ,fashion baby

i really loved Lady GaGa ever since she released her album The Fame (without knowing her at first, i straightly went to the cashier) yeah, i don't care whether she was a bisex or not. it's like i'm having a weird connection with her, she's one of my rasper.

Ley's have some fun with this beat is sick ,i wanna take a ride on the disco stick

Not in a mood except :

Terry Richardson really could "Click"

I bleed red ,but the pain always goes away quickly

just then i watched Clash of the Titans, the movie's plot and scene were exactly the same as Percy Jackson yeap they were telling about Zeus' child Perseus whose trying to save the Argon by killing Hades and Kraken using Medusa's head (i wonder why the directors really loved to make a movie containing greek mythology),i had fallen in love with Sam Worthington and the part when he rode Pegasus on the coast also when he tried to save Andromeda yeah he got the very masculine face that makes girl like awww* (of course i'm not included, and Logan Lerman's still my type). anyway, the 10th series of Gunslinger Girl are now on my hand and no, not Rico altough i loved her character. it's Petrushka (well actually it was Elizabeta Baranovskaya, but Alessandro Ricci had made it for Petra), distraught at her dreams of becoming a ballerina ending, she attempted suicide by jumping off the roof. i really loved that the was well groomed and she was trained for combat also when she utilised Spectre M4 submachine gun and Taurus PT92 pistol. oh fine now i'm becoming the Social Welfare Agency freaks. if you don't know the SWA thing, they're brainwashing the adolescent girls who have survived traumatic early lives into forgetting their pasts, turned into cyborgs and used as assassins to battle terrorists, gangsters and other undesirables elements of society, yeap Gunslinger Girl really touched me when it comes to the part of brief flashback *tremble*, especially for Angelica and Elsa de Sica. enough for that, i felt sleepy because i ate dragon rolls and a burger this noon and then i'm glut enough to throw some shit up so bye bloggers, sleep tight.

Did you ever wish for the impossible ?

just woke up too early this morning. so today was april fool (the society was a way too brilliant for saying that there was a 3D mode, fuck you) but i'm not in a mood for making fun on others, so guess i'll just do nothing but completing the k-on series. yeap i'm really that nerd. anyway i'm gonna wrote some adds-on to my older blogs today to make them sensible wink* so don't wonder if once you open my blog you'll see it full on each page wink wink*. i had no plans today but maybe i'm gonna take a note down on my homeworks. so yesterday my friend just lend me hers (sorry, actually i'm the one who asked her for it) and it'll be like that or else i'll be doing it on my whole weekend, i'm just the type of person who do something close to its deadline like hws or tests (i think it's one of my bad habits, though). today 2 of my hamsters Pe and Nis (well it's not them, i told you it was april fool) died with their head gone nowhere. by the way, the kids were making a fuss about no-courtship-rules which will be eliminated for the next new term, because somehow they *fucks* said it doesn't really works on for the senior students. and like my school ain't got no reasons to kick me out of that (even they had threaten me twice, and yes, it really doesn't work), and they are all nuts. once again, they are nuts. Kristen Bell got a role on playing a movie called When In Rome. if you don't know her well, she's the one who casts on Daredevil and Ghost Rider. yeap that basically it, Bell really have the most gorgeous face on her age and she's that amazing. maundy thursday, i'm don't feel like going to church at all.

Enough ,it's all over

i don't know much to say. maybe life wasn't for me, perfectly. every time i intertwined a thing they just can't take it seriously and they really loved to make a fool on me. i don't get why some people would do that, and they're just one of them. they just can't, hurting others would maybe the best thing to bang them up. they don't mind insulting people without seeing that they had done a lot worse than mine. to clarify it, i used to love them so much but they just go and pissed me off like i meant nothing. but fuck it, it's not like i'm ashamed or mad. i fear nothing and even without them i'll be alright and nothing bothers me a lot. it's just how they acts and speaks and i really hate it when they humiliate me of my old mistakes. do they have no mind at all to think that human fails and simply gets up, so do i, and of course them. now that i found it difficult they starts to speaks ass and i don't know what the fucking problem they had with me. i hate them, and they hate me. so? yeah, after all life wasn't for me. but i'm fine.

Gaga Freak !