Rain is a good thing.

Introducing my new dog, here it goes.
so my beagle had been stolen by someone about a week ago, and i was so sad. so my mom and us decided to buy a new dog, her name is pocky. she is 7 months old and she has brown thick fur. she oftens bark upon something that human can't see, well. dogs and babies can see ghosts, that's what i envy from them. speaking about ghosts, last week i went to sency and bought Tonya Hurley's ghostgirl, and i'm really in love to this book. it tells about a girl named charlotte who died because of a guy and a gummybear. pretty ironic, but then she discovers that she had turned into ghost and had to stay in Hawthorne Manors for some reasons, and her days felt the same as before she died. she did not have friends. so yeah, not gonna tell you the whole story because me myself haven't done reading it yet. i want to buy the rest of the series, but i will just finish the Rest In Popularity and then buy the Lovesick one. bye.

Raise glass to mend.

oh, i cant find the official video for this song. its a nice song anyway :)

so i've left my blog for quite a long time, sorry. i've nothing important to tell and, i'm not gonna write much now. but well, last week was horrible. me and my friends were caught drinking mixmax outside the school but, actually if they expell me from the school i would be the happiest person on earth, deal with it. you are being a hypocrite by arguing against alcohol use and on pro for the law of not taking illegal drugs. i don't think it needs social interference. all drugs should be legalized. punish people who break real laws like rape, molestation, theft, murder, and things like that. if sometimes drugs lead to these things, punish the people doing them. and oh, about the rules for wearing some certain clothes. in most other countries, even topless women aren't considered nude. its not like you're gonna have a heart attack when you see a goddamn breasts, thighs. because thats not your body, the only thing you think the world should revolve around. thats like disliking someone for the shoes they wear, totally grade 2. open your legs butter legs easy to spread for the school rules and play ping pong. i hate my school, and i hate my home. this is my life so lets just do our own, you go your way and i'll go mine. never tell me to do dis and dat cause i just found out that you are a smelly turd and don't expect me obeying your nonsense rules, its YOURS. just do your own rules on your life cause you aren't even a bitsy cheese of my life. and i dont consider it. i wish you treat me with basic respect instead of attacking me because i dont agree with your worldview. i never slandered you, not once. you called me bitchy and immoral. sorry, i'm not here to make you satisfied. its wrong because i don't want to change the very way i live my life to benefit everyone else. i'm not a socialist. i dont have to live as a role model, thats not my job. see? i end up writing this much.

Can't spell L.O.V.E

Yeah so, i'm inside my car now. just on my way back from ex andplaza indonesia, it was not a really good time i'm having. the reason is that my dad has been calling me for 9 times since last 15 minutes and i haven't answered any of them. it sucks. i hate being called frequently because it's just makes me felt uncomfortable, extremely bugging. so actually i wasn't allowed to go out more than 10 pm but because it's weekend, i'm breaking a little bit of house's rules. anyway there were music performances at hardrock which i thought was quite good, and most of the bands' vocalists aren't too trashy. there's a midsale in zara which some of the clothes costs only $20. so bad i didn't buy any because yesterday i bought a heels and lots of bangles and left nothing inside my pocket, geez. i hope the sale's still available for next week, but i don't think so because its already the last week of july, damn. so guys, gotta go to sleep right now, so tired not because of hanging out until midnight but because of that damn 9 misscalls. Bye ~

It's Wonderland.

hello folks, it's only a few weeks after the new academic year began, and we already have tons of homeworks and quizzes to do. yeah, we used to have only 3 assignments the most, but now the school are making a new standard for all classes : 5 assignments per day. it's torturing, and we still don't know what are they expecting from giving so lots of works. anyway, i had a story to tell. so yesterday while we were having the maths class, my teacher notices that i'm wearing a piercing. then she told me that she's gonna tell to my mom and ask me to put off my earrings because it's against school's rules. okay, you're gonne hell tell my mom and bring me to the store to take off my earring. however after the sports session ends, the coach calls me.
coach : hey, you're wearing an earring? where is it?
me : yeah.
coach : why don't you wear it like most of girls usualy did? i mean, in the right place.. (it's because my earring is located on the upper of me ear, so)
me : i'm alergic. and by the way, i never remembered having a rule written in the "rulebook" that the student's aren't allowed to wear earrings in some certain places. it's earring.
coach : .........
we really don't have any rules about wearing piercingsand once, my english teacher said that before he enters bs he's used to wear bracelets and necklaces because somehow, it did comforts him and makes him feels confident. so do i. i don't think one or two accessories would make a school's name or prestation be dropped. a good school is a good school. a weird school is a weird school. bs is one great example of super-extraordinary-retarded school. students aren't allowed to do bad things and screwing things in the school location, i knew. but wearing accessories is not disturbing. the students pay, the students do whatever they want as long as it doesn't drop the school's title. i really hope the school principal, the student head would read my beautiful and meaningful blog. it's better than reading the school rules. well, anyhow. i like someone. not his girlfriend and he doesn't even now i liked him actually, but we are pretty close. sometimes he calls me and we talk about many interesting things to share, and he's totally cool. nope, he's not too handsome, not too smart and not too popular.. but i think he's attractive, he's kind to all people and i know he's a good person. oh well, let's see how it works but so far, i don't see any sense of love in him, or i'm just too careless? in many ways, actually :)

No more dreaming about tomorrow.

Okay guys, i haven't tell you that about one week ago i'm using a blackberry again. no, my school haven't return my phone until october, but my mom has a new bb which she aren't using so she gave it to me. it's gemini, the old one was 8310. my brother wants to use the bb i'm using right now as soon as my old bb is returned, so what do you think? should i sell the old one together with the other phone i'm using for the 3 simcard to buy a new phone, or i will just use the gemini and my brother buy the new one? because this phone is still completely new and gemini is better than 8310. well, drop your comments. tomorrow is monday and i always hate monday. we had lots of hws and i haven't done any of them because i hate hws, geez. the only thing that makes me wanna go to school is sports like physical educations or ecas. i like basketball, marathons and gymnastics. tapi kalo udah badminton volley lah, i suck bad. the pe teacher was replaced by my religion teacher, does it sounds a bit weird? yea but my religion teacher was fun, i think the pe time will be more exciting than the last academic year's teacher. he's such a boring-unskilled labour and now he's teaching grade 9's social studies! oh i think you should learn how to differentiate heaven and hell, skankerzilla. it's like there will be no peace and normal teachers in bs. all the teachers and principals are dictators, they treat students like ass and brainwashing all of us like robots. but i wouldn't be one of those bastards and sluts, i'm a rebel of that school, that jail. bs is stupid. rules are made to be obeyed, but we aren't supposed to obey that kind of rules because that's just not normal. what kind of school would give their students a warning letters or drop-outs just because they are having a relationship or they are going to nightclubs, oh men. it's 2010 dorks, what kind of minds you have inside your forehead? how ancient.

Criminals.

I wonder how some people prefers Miley Cyrus than Lady Gaga. Miley is disgusting. look at her latest music video can't be tamed, she's trying to catch people's attention and how could anyone watch her video without cringing? a-no-talent, incurably Gaga-copycat disney graduate doing one tasteless ass after herself.. she sing while she was sucking her so called mileyfans, ugh. a few minutes ago i was watching Gaga's telephone video and some users are debating whose better, Gaga or Cyrus then someone drop a comment that we shouldn't admire "a hermaphrodite retarded imitator" and i think that was just not ethical. Gaga isn't a hermaphrodite, she was born female completely a female. and by the way if someone don't like Gaga, why are they on her videos? just to be mean to her? what do you expect, you shaggy pathetic hobgoblin bastard. Gaga is talented, she almost create her original songs everyday and you should know that the only talent Miley have is to leave her crotch wide open, she let Disney do all her work and she just sat back on the stage with her fat body. she took over her dad's name, you easy accessed hoe! at least gaga was the queen of pop a titled that Miley doesn't have and she was way better than that queen gaga copycat who tries to be like her or Britney. miley is exactly copying gaga, you should have seen all the dancing guys besides her and her outfits, it was Gaga's idea. you speak shit about gaga, i speak shit about that skank slut Cyrus. go hump your dog and stop singing like a baboon. gaga has self respect unlike Miley so yeah goodluck Miley to be the queen of pop, oh no you can't Gaga is the queen.

It's 'bout dogs and ninth grade.

Let me tell ya about chewy. chewy is my neighbor's chihuahua, he often came to our house to play with my dog. he's, oh adorable. although my neighbor's house are far enough from mine, he knows when to come and when he must go back to eat. he's a smart dog particularly compared to my dog, my dog is mischievous, he's a trouble-maker and perhaps he won't come back if we set him free. by the way, today after i visited my friend's house, i went to my school to look at the class division and unluckily, i'm in 9.1. my new classmates are all suckers except some of my bestfriends, maybe. oh well. we have one autism boys who loved to pick his nose and also a girl whose face looks like the ghost dog in ghost school comic. and the worst is, the brat who claims my early classmate as her "boyfriend", thats dumb. i guess i would have to adapt the weird peoples and yeah, a year to go.

To hell with love.

Hello folks. maybe most of you think falling in love is a fairytale. well, it's a nightmare actually. love isn't something exciting which you can feel your heart beating. wake up, it's reality. i mean, you can see that some of teenagers around us had their relationship lasts less than 3 years the most. honestly, i've been dating four boys in my life. and three of them are totally a jerk. only one of them doesn't cheat on girls or leave me alone, well that lasts only about 3 months. so now, i loved someone. but he had a girlfriend whom i'd known well. nightmare. oh yes, never mind what i'm talking about. not gonna destroy your imagination. have you guys watch the doom generation? gave you the trailer in my last post. it was soo cool. rose mcgowan looks classy here, altough the movie was a little bit nude. yeah of couse, it's sex. violence. whatever.
Hello folks. maybe most of you think falling in love is a fairytale. well, it's a nightmare actually. love isn't something exciting which you can feel your heart beating. wake up, it's reality. i mean, you can see that some of teenagers around us had their relationship lasts less than 3 years the most. honestly, i've been dating four boys in my life. and three of them are totally a jerk. only one of them doesn't cheat on girls or leave me alone, well that lasts only about 3 months. so now, i loved someone. but he had a girlfriend whom i'd known well. nightmare. oh yes, never mind what i'm talking about. not gonna destroy your imagination. have you guys watch the doom generation? gave you the trailer in my last post. it was soo cool. rose mcgowan looks classy here, altough the movie was a little bit nude. yeah of couse, it's sex. violence. whatever.

You don't watch this film, you witness it.

Mistouch.

For my dearest as,
life is random and love can be just as random. if you sit back and really think about it, you will be left with one thought-a profound one-why bother? the only reason to live is to love and the only reason to love is to live. i had neither.. at least i didn't yet. i still love you. i always would. you are my "why bother".

thanks to ghostgirl, really inspiring :)

Afterlife.

We all surely want to know what happens right after we died--afterlife, not really the "afterlife", but i was just hoping whether we could possesed someone else and lived as them, well, i mean it would be great for me if i could see the world through her eyes and having things i admired her for. you've heard it, i admired someone. living a perfect life with perfect face-perfect body-perfect guy-perfect wealth, why would there be no girls cringing after they saw her? this is world to the one, absolutely not one of the world, because great people rules. the poors must have been neglected. elders did had time to correct their mistakes before they died, while youths doesn't. its because their time were being extended-while shortlived youths still stucked in an unhandled self-control moment. thats why afterlife are needed, so that there will be no hell and heaven, right and wrong person, bad and good groupies, because it was compulsory that Jesus have some sense of joke sending people to hell when actually He had paid all of their life. the only main thing is to know how we ended up dead-or what is really our regret.

WOW !

Dakota Fanning and Kristen Stewart, totally amazing. looked young and fresh in the picture above ;)

D A M N.

don't blame me, it was really, totally, certainly irrelevant. you're just too busy putting make-ups, buying speedcars, making nosejobs boobjobs legjobs whatsoever. so if he once or ever blink some flirty eyes behind you straight up pathetic you dumb nazi. just give your fully effort on attracting him and waste the whole of your life making some nonsense which most of people doesn't even care. love. it came if we were meant and tied to each other, not something you try hard on so that you end up pathetically. yes, you are completely pathetic. PATHETIC. i'm not his girlfriend, not even a special friend. eat shit you fucking toad licking numbnuts. nada, zero, zip, nothing. i stands out, you doesn't.
i love him, but i'm not in love with him. this is a false distinction. completely backwards if you think about it. love is love. what's really meant by being in love is obsession, addiction, infatuation, but not actual love. being in love is a statement of your own needs and desires rather than an attempt to fulfill another's. true love, on the other hand, is a bridge between to people. it had taken me most of my life, and all of my afterlife, to come to this realization.
so yes, me and charlotte usher is completely similar. we just had one difference, she's dead and i'm alive. but i'm gonna die, soon

He doesn't even know i'm alive.

being in love with someone who doesn't even know you exist isn't the worst thing in the world. in fact, it's quite the opposite. almost like passing in a term paper that you know sucked, but having that period of time where you haven't gotten your grade back yet, that kind of exhale whre you haven't been rejected, although you pretty much know how it's going to turn out. when it came to you, i wanted to wait as long as possible for that paper to come back. but waiting until you've just died is, well, maybe waiting a little too long.. or maybe not.

Grown ups.

Grown-ups, it was exciting. so today me and my friends went to puri to watch it, kocak parah. filmya bagus, it was nostalgic because it tells about the old friends meeting again in a funeral and end up staying together in an island. i like jasmine.